Confessions of a Crazy Cat Lady

O.k.

My posts have been non-existent for a while now as I've had a fair bit on my plate recently. Life changing "oh-my-goodness-I-can't-believe-this-is-happening-to-me" kinds of stuff happening.

I posted briefly that my job of nine and a half years doesn't exist any more, which in itself is not super stressful given the pay out etc. I'm a capable person, I should be able to find a job well before the money runs out... right? Right!

But..


(Remember my post two posts ago? Get ready to laugh, or gasp - your choice)


Factor in the fact that I found out I was pregnant about a week before I found out I was redundant, and you get a "oh-my-goodness-I-can't-believe-this-is-happening-to-me" kinda moment. My (now ex-)boss was telling me how he'd tried hard to drum up business and what it means to him and his family that he has to wind up the business and stuff, and I'm crying, and crying.

I'm thinking about the mortgage, and the interest rate rises (I stopped counting when they went up over $250 a month from when we got the mortgage in November) and now I have no maternity leave and what the hell am I going to do about child care and what is a new employer going to say when after they give me a job they find out that I have to have time off and we can't pay the mortgage on one wage let alone eat, AND look after one more... and lots more.

I was 6 weeks pregnant. My learning curve had already been steep, and was getting steeper. I'd already been told by my GP (on a Friday afternoon) "Book an Obstetrician now - don't leave it till Monday, because they might not have any space left". I'd already had to change my health care cover, book a spot in hospital for February and answer all kinds of questions you had no idea you'd need to know the answer to within a week of peeing on a stick.

I'm crying as I'm typing this, reliving the memories - welcome to pregnancy hormones, they kick in pretty quick - as well as the need to pee a LOT! Thankfully, I'm at 9 weeks now and have so far dodged the morning sickness bullet - job hunting whilst not knowing when I was likely to puke would REALLY suck!

I've currently got two part time "temp" jobs, both should see me up to when I pop, and one possibly beyond that... so it is a good start - but still only about 22-25 hours a week. It looks like I'll have Tuesdays and Thursdays to fill in with more work. I'm seriously looking at applying for a casual Box Office job at La Boite (Thanks Rastas!), which might be able to supplement the hours enough to make ends meet.



We had our first Obstetrician's appointment last week (I ended up getting an obstetrician without any drama), which was nerve wracking and exciting. We had our first scan and heard and saw a strong heartbeat, and development measured exactly to my dates - heartening.


So, those are our first baby pics - can you see it?

It's a bit of a magic eye test at this stage, but as far as I remember, the baby is the grey bit between the crosses (where they are measuring how big it is - 7 cms long), on the right is the head, and the left is the butt. The white "smile" is the cord. The obstetrician got all excited when she saw the head move during the scanning process, and I think she was a bit miffed we didn't get more excited too - but we didn't know where we were looking - and to be honest, the blinking heartbeat was mesmerising for me. That was as big as seeing the two lines on the stick in the "OMG this is happening" stakes. I think it was for BabyCakes too.

So, we've told family, because we knew they would be too excited for us to not tell them, and now we're telling our friends.

Take your time to get used to it - we won't be offended if you don't want to talk about it yet. This *is* our anouncement though, so we won't be making specific calls etc. Feel free to pass the news on to people you think might want to know.

We're happy (if not a little worried about money), but we're sure we can cope with this. It was ironic that life just exploded into a whole world of change for us, all at once. We thought getting married was the biggest change we would have this year!

For those of you that want the specifics, we're at 9 weeks 1 day, and the estimated date of delivery is February 11th 2009.

BabyCakes thinks we're having a girl... I have no idea - I'll settle for a happy, healthy baby :)